The last couple of weeks have been really hard on me. With the start of summer, I’ve been thinking back on my past summers and all the fun times we had as a family. Camping, cabin, boat rides, 4th of July week with Loren’s family and more. I love summer, but have just been dreading it this year because I have no idea what I’m doing to do on my weekends. We have a lot of mutual friends, so I feel like I have to be so careful who I am around so we don’t end up together. It would be awkward for my girls, for us, and for others around us.
This past weekend was the first nice weekend we’ve had. I was fortunate that I knew he wouldn’t be at the lake and I had some good friends invite me with them to the lake both Friday and Saturday. It was nice. Different than before, but nice. The girls had a blast and we actually felt kind of normal. (whatever that may be). The next thing to get through will be the 4th of July week. It’s bittersweet that my camping days are over for now. Last year was pretty rough, but I truly did enjoy the good times. Again, I know I’ll survive it and find new things to do and new people to be with, I just hate thinking about it. Again, really need to just take 1 day at a time and enjoy the present.