Today is January 1, 2014. It is a new chapter. Not just a new year, but also the official close to my marraige. My divorce became final 12/30/2013. It was bittersweet when I found out. So glad the part of my life is behind me, but also so scarey not knowing my future. I’ve accepted the fact that I’m alone and I’m ok with that. I know that I’m truly never alone. I have my girls, my family, my friends, and Jesus Christ. He has kept me strong and has given me faith, courage, and strength and has shown me that He is in control of my life. I know He has plans for me, I don’t know what they are right now, but I know if I stay with Him, he’ll watch over me and show me wonderful things.
The last couple of weeks were difficult getting through the holidays, but I survived. Stronger than ever. There were times when I didn’t think i could take anymore and just wanted to sleep through it all, but I did survive each day. I’m scared to death of the future, of dating, of failing again. But He reminds me to put my faith in Him and I’ll be ok.
I saw a quote about starting dating again and it was something like “I’m scared to date because it will end in 1 of 2 ways…either break up or marraige.” I don’t want to deal with either of those experiences right now, so I will not be dating until I feel I am strong enough to deal with it. This next chapter is about me. About finding myself, being stronger than ever, being the best everything that I can be. So, Cheers to a new year, a new chapter, a new life.